Sunday, September 30, 2007

Spilling it all out...

Let me blog a little about myself today:) My dreams, likes, hates etc...
Warning: Please do not fall asleep...

I used to be very ambitious in the past, longing to be a professional tennis player becos of my love for tennis and the very attractive paycheck and have been working hard at it for some time.

But now that I've turned 19, suddenly being what I've always wanted to be doesn't seem all that attractive anymore... I began to question myself in these aspects: am i being realistic(sheesh~)? will my hard work pay off? (hey this is singapore i'm living in) am i actually that great to being with? sounds like i'm being pessimistic here but it's the truth. I've to learn to accept it.

I'm not born into a well to do family and money is always an issue. I've also come to learn that life is a struggle, not to mention other factors that adds to it; the pursuit of a better life is a struggle itself.

Sometimes i felt that i would never get use to life in Singapore: the fast pace, increasing demands (GST hike... blah blah), the warm weather (for some reason i can't stand our weather here), the monotonous life that was supposedly beneficial for us (study hard, earn a master, get a well paid job).

Seriously.

I've had enough.

I might sound like i'm having suicidal thoughts.. haha well.. not that bad...

I guess i was born into the wrong world. Yes, maybe i'm taking things for granted. Here I am, having enough to eat, given the chance to study, having friends to hang out with.... and i'm still complaining.

True.. but then... people are never contented. Not when they fight for what they want. Am i right?

I just want to live a simple life by the countryside. (Doesn't sound like me ya?:) )See?!I've changed! Look what reality has done to me!! I'm thinking of retiring already!

Some pics:

I would like to live in a cottage like this someday:)

Or this!

By the seaside.. in France, toulouse(sent to me by brother oliver)

Shall it be the lavender field....

Or the sunflower field? :)

**At least I'm not dreaming of living in a castle!! ^^**

Imagine this: Fresher air, prettier sights (though seeing the same things everyday would be kinda boring too), perhaps the only things you would need to compete for is the air available:)
Can i only dream about this? Unless i'm a millionaire ba.. OR perhaps... perhaps...

Do you know what I'm thinking? haha

Unless...

Unless....

Unless i get to marry a farmboy! :D
How i wish... ...

That he would look like
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Robin van persie of cos!! hee hee My idol for the past 3 years:)

**Never stop hoping! ^^**

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//Lover

Typical girl on the outside, never know what she's thinking on the inside. I just wanna lead a carefree life by the countryside:(in Europe)

//Loves

Loves: Robin van persie, my family, friends, chocolates, the internet, brother oliver, children (esp. ryan and rimus), dreaming, teenage flicks, fairy tales,F1, MotoGP, EPL(only when arsenal is winning), my room.

//Hates

Hates: Boredom, the reality, pollution, work, study, warm weather, arsenal losing, robin van persie injured, being forced to do things

//Lies

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Hui yee . Charis . Chou Meng
Jia min . Mei Mei. Jia Fong.

//Special thanks