Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Rimus

Today, my project group and I went to my childcare centre as we'll be implementing our final year project there.

We were in the centre for about half an hour and I was secretly waiting for the toddlers to come back from their outdoor walk.

About 15 minutes after we reached the centre the toddlers were back. My eyes were scanning for Rimus and he was the last to arrived. I scurried through the sea of toddlers and lowered myself till i could see him properly.

He flashed his megawatt smile and I asked him if he still remember me. He talked in his own baby language but I could understand it....

He did!!!!! I love you Rimus! =D

I gave him a tender hug and placed my cheek next to his and I'm so happy I could feel the same softness feeling again!:D

I helped him with his shoes and then when he was putting his shoes into the shelf I gave him a hug again and pressed my cheek against his... somehow i'm addicted to the feeling

He circled his arms and legs around my torso and refused to let go:) hee hee

I miss u Rimus! I really do...

I wish my little brother or future son will be just like you... :)

The 6 of us (group members) had our lunch at Long John Silver and made lots of small chats... mostly which involves humiliating one another etc etc... It was quite fun:)

Long day out today... been out since 10.15 am (visit to childcare) and finally home at about 7pm.

And i'm feeling terrible because of the cold i caught yesterday....

Feeling better now cos chatting with O. :)hee hee

Looking forward to happier days ahead!

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

I've learn to deal with unhappy incidents and my monotonous school life by preoccupying myself with the things i like to do..

Sounds easy and satisfying at first, but it also leads to greater and unreasonable demands and lack of motivation to work hard for what i was suppose to be doing as i was drawing myself further and further from my supposedly ultimate goal which was to survive the trying months before graduation which seems like a good 3 years away. (3 months actually)

I'm really happy to know O and I love what I am when I'm with him. He's my source of happiness and equal sadness at times besides my closest friends and family. Someone who made me feel God indeed did send each of us an angel to take care of us in times of needs.

Perhaps it's hard for others to understand, when we're 2 totally different people with different principles in life, a rather big gap in age, different nationalities, religions and so on... but we're human beings after all... I believe if we can all see that the possibility of world peace wouldn't seem so far-fetched after all.

I don't deny the fact that I'm putting myself at a risk by choosing to go with my heart most of the time. At least i feel immediate gratification whenever I needed it. Even if it hurts at times as I know very well that it can never go beyond what I wanted it to be, I'm pretty satisfied already. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger... and I'm willing to put that to a test.

Because before I met him I never knew what it was like to look at someone and smile for no reason. And his smile in return makes it all worthwhile... I'll remember my first TL at 19, my best birthday present ever...

I would have to keep reminding myself that I don't own my angel, he was sent to me to make me realise that all is not lost, there's someone out there who you can trust and who deserved equal chance to find his own happiness.

But for now I can't... so i'll keep trying and trying... until life surprises me with other greater things..

**++In youth, it was a way I had,
To do my best to please.
And change, with every passing lad
To suit his theories.

But now I know the things I know
And do the things I do,
And if you do not like me so,
To hell, my love, with you.++**

Saturday, October 27, 2007

Went out with 4/5 of the Wu Gong Zhu Bang today...

We decided to shop at Bugis, where we took our neoprints and the theme was 'the 4 seasons'. It was beautifully taken as usual, but i prefer the machines at J entertainment... cheaper and better quality.. ironic isn't it

It was an awfully hot day and roaming through bugis streets felt like trekking through a hot, humid forest with many interesting finds. I bought 2 casual tops and a pair of golden shoes which gave me terrible blisters after I worn it upon buying. The pain was so terrible that I took it off at jurong east and worn back my loyal 3 inch high sandals.

Jiamin also splurge on a new beautiful bag and a new tee shirt while Mingmay and Charis didn't see anything that really caught their eyes.

One interesting thing was that we kept losing each other when we're paired up... be it may and charis, me and jiamin or jiamin and charis, me and may... and everytime we would be looking for one another in the midst of shopping.

We also talked a lot about our secondary school teachers in the MRT and to our surprise we seemed to have the same opinions about the teachers! TTL, JH, MGO, ML, MK.... HAHA are they obvious?

Jiamin and I came up with a great idea after graduation which was to work together and travel the globe! i was really happy cos Jiamin is one of my closest friend and it would be great if we could work together as ever since we graduated from sec school we could only see each other at most once a week.

To conclude it all.. I've a great day! Being with you guys really cheered me up lots!

Pictures of the day

Friday, October 26, 2007

Curse of Freaky Friday

I've come to learn that Friday is my least favourite day of the week.

Actually i feel it's Monday (when school reopens) but then Friday is the day that reminds me of how unlucky I am.

Let's start with TODAY...

I woke up 3 hours before lecture commenced this morning (one hour for traveling, 2 hours for getting ready). Just my typical morning, no rush, no haste.

Thought i have sufficient time but then time seemed to fly by this morning and I was still getting ready at about 9.50am.... sigh... got to rush

Then it's the 'wrong timing' scenario again.... waiting for the maximum 50 seconds for the green man to appear at the traffic conjunction, seeing the mrt fly by when i got up from the escalator, watching the bus zoomed past me when i got to the bus stop.

And when my bus finally came, it was extremely crowded.... not even peak hours... it was 9.25am. My body was jerking from side to side and i was having difficulties balancing as i was standing directly above the path where there's a mini slope. So my left foot was at a lower ground. I can't move cos the bus was packed.

When the bus reached SIM, i was pushed from the back till i was pressed along the side of the seats in an awkward manner and i managed to find and empty seat but ended up 'falling' on the seat as i tripped myself.

Finally, as i reached my block and walk towards the lift area, the first lift was stuck at first level as the construction workers were using it to transport their tiles. Which means that the second lift could not come down... i waited for the construction workers to lift each boxes of tiles into the lift and counted each boxes in my mind.

About 7 minutes later, I finally got into the second lift.

I waited outside the classroom and sat on the shelves, chatting away with my friends. Then a student came up to me and whispered awkwardly, gesturing me about something. I have no idea what he was talking about until i realised my dress was so long that it covered half of the shelves and his shoes were in them.

I was embarrassed when i finally realised that and i even accidentally fell sideway into the gaps between the 2 shelves. Ugly pose. sigh

My class were dismissed 35 minutes late so my clique decided to dine at the pizza hut restaurant at Bukit Timah Plaze instead of Jurong Entertainment. Agnes couldn't joined us cos she got a project discussion after class :'(

We waited for about 10 minutes before we were ushered into the restaurant and I love the atmosphere! Our seats were great and we were happily chit chatting away and proceeded to placing our order.

We decided on a crispy thin deluxe cheese pizza (reg), double twin pleasure cheese cakes for me, chocolate ice cream on brownie for Ashidah and a brownie for Qiyu.

We talked about all kind of stuffs in school and how we're all stressed out over the final year project... (i don't even want to go there)

We continued chatting for about 30 minutes until We realised something was amiss. We enquired one of the waitress and she said our order is coming soon. The students opposite us who arrived later than us were already woofing down their meals but our pizza was yet to be served. We laughed it off that maybe theirs was the student set so it was faster.

But then another 10 minutes passed by and we don't think it's funny anymore. 4o minutes has passed by and still no food??? We've got a lecture to attend in an hour's time. We stop another waitress and she asked us what we ordered. She then asked if we would like to have the desserts first.

..... .. ..... ......

Ok, i'm starving... never mind.

My cheese cakes was served.

Followed by Ashidah's ice cream brownie.

Another 10 minutes went by... still no pizza.

And yes...

Where's Qiyu's brownie???

Not here yet.

I stood up from my seat and went to the counter. I saw the girl who took our order and asked her if our pizza is ready cos 50 minutes has went by and there isn't a crowd. Before i could finished my sentence she interrupted me and told me the kitchen crews are making my pizza now. I thanked her and went back to my seat.

I was angry honestly cos I felt really unlucky since the morning. And now that even when I'm chilling out the bad luck virus has to attack me.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

An hour later our pizza finally arrived.

And guess what....

It wasn't the crispy thin pizza that we ordered....

I wanted to tell the waitress but come to think of it... i wouldn't want to wait for another hour for my order. So we settled on this.

It tasted great cos we were starving.

And Qiyu's brownie hasn't found it's way to our table yet.

After Qiyu finished her share of pizza she asked one of the crew about her brownie.

5 minutes later it was finally here.

The waitress apologized to us cos the waitress who took our order earlier on is a new staff and she has a miscommunication with the other crews.

I could only say...

Poor us.

I hate Friday..

Well most of the time

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Happy days! ^^

Kimi Raikonnen is world champion!!!!! Finally he has it all right!!!! I'm so happy that the current best driver in F1 won and better still, as a result of team work:D Thanks MASSA!!!

Haha i'm even happier today during lecture because of the seat I had taken...

Whahahahahaha F1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Let's take a closer look..

Happy Happy Happy!!!!

After school at about one we(me, qiyu, ashidah) made our way to Ashidah's house for Hari Raya celebration. I was kinda excited about it cos Ashidah's mother is a good cook and Ashidah is very hospitable to her guests! So I want to make an effort to visit her every hari raya! haha self-service. Agnes couldn't make it on time and would be joining us much later.

Luckily for us the 154 double decker bus was quite empty and we could choose our favourite seats which was the ones directly above the driver's!=D Haha becos we could get a better view of our surroundings and it felt like we're navigating the bus LOL

We passed by lots of high-priced apartments and these houses are so pretty!!!! Just like the ones i want to live in out in the countryside! Too bad, the only view they could get would be the busy road opposite those houses. My eyes were swimming from house to house until 20 minutes later (yes, there was that much pretty houses!) i collapsed on the spot due to sheer tiredness.

By the time i woke up we're about to get off the bus.... i felt a little embarrassed cos i was the only one who dozed off and i must have looked bad becos my mouth was opened when i woke up :'(

Finally, at about 2.30pm we arrived at Ashidah's house... which was pleasant looking as usual.:D Ashidah served us her mother's wonderful homemade kuehs and i just helped myself... and couldn't stop till i reminded myself that the main course is yet to be served yet.haha i'm such a glutton..

The wonderful kuehs...

The main course! Mee Goreng and chicken wings!!!

After our scrumptious meals, we decided to take down some memories of today's happy events.

Through taking pictures!!!!

By trying out various poses and emotions...

Let's begin!!!

The decent looking, wholesome 4s...

Another good girls image... standing up

Girls gone bad

Friends 4ever!

The drama mamas

Singapore's next top models....

SNTM pt 2

Where are we looking???

Act cute ah!!!

My buddy Qiyu...

Oh ya... forgot to mention these cute looking mini glasses!!! and the glass bowl for washing our hands! Nice!=D

mmm.... nowadays been feelings rather vexed because i would have to think of what i would like to be in the future and began to take subtle steps towards it.... problem is i am still not sure!

Don't mind getting married early though >.<

Career to consider: Nutritionist, sales line (me as the boss), caregiver at the orphanage, doing business online, writer, journalist, magazine editor....

I want to excel in a type of sports!

Hopefully i would be daring enough to take up driving lessons before 25.

Sigh... I don't want to be an adult.... i want to be 19 forever! >.<

How about a job in the airport???? Heard that they would give 4 tickets to anyway around the world annually~

wow wow wow~

Think think think think consider consider consider consider dream dream dream dreamxx

Sunday, October 21, 2007

The 5ives

On how my life's been so far...

The Good fives...:D
1) Met up with the Wu Gong Zhu Bang

2) Retail therapy with Bang Zhu

3)I dreamed of a baby daughter:D She was cute and obedient and i love her so much!!

4)Re-watched a 1996 japanese drama and it felt as good as before:)

5)Other than school the time spent outside of it is just fab

The BAD fives...:(
1) School! (what else?)

2) Robin van persie hurt his knee during international football duties and is out for a month!

3)Didn't manage to get a good night sleep since last week.

4) Money is getting tight.

5) I missed the children at my childcare TOO MUCH!!!!! to the extend that i wept in my sleep when i dreamed of them

The hope to be fives...
1) A windfall

2)To hug Rimus again

3)To be able to talk to oliver every time i signed into MSN.

4) To be able to play tennis again

5) Arsenal to defeat liverpool next week! (wahahahahahaha)

Children:The best things that can happened to me~

A surprise birthday party...

Retail therapy with Charis at IMM last Friday and it was so fun!!!! I got to unwind after 7 hours in school ending at 5.30pm..
I got my brother his birthday presents which includes an apricot cleanser, a tee-shirt and a pair of green pants.

Of cos i got my stuffs too! Charis and I spent quite some time at Watson (i just love IMM watson so much!) We ate at MOS before shopping out hearts out at 'Captivating' which is offering a 30% discount storewide and 50% off your second purchase.

Charis bought 2 very pretty tops and i bought a babydoll dress at half the original price of $59.90. But to my disappointment... it was only until i got home did i realise that the sewing job was not well done and i sort of regretted my splurge. But nvm... i was really happy!

Hope to meet up with Charis and hopefully all members of the Wu Gong Zhu Bang weekly for a fabulous night of shopping!!!!! =D

On Saturday (20th October) which was my brother's birthday, i also have in mind a special surprise for him=D
I smsed his best bud the previous night and told him to gather the other members of my brother's gang for a in house party.

Luckily for me he was quick to reply back and helped me to inform 5 other members of the Edward's gang.:D And so we plant a surprise on him on his birthday at 1pm where i pretended to got out with a friend and organized a secret meeting with his pals at the void deck.

When we proceeded to my house and my brother opened the door haha his face went blank when he saw his friends and without opening the door for us he rushed to his room to have a change of clothes.
And yes haha the rest of us were kept waiting for him until he changed into his super nice red Liverpool jersey... And a wild party followed... i hid in my room watching anime for 4 hours straight cos the gang seemed to be here to stay...
My brother even suggested they stay till nighttime but i don't think our neighbours are that tolerant...

Because they are a major source of NOISE POLLUTION.

What do you get when you invited a bunch of 16 year old boys to a party with lots of food for them?
Ans: Loud chats full of vulgarities, jeers, whistles, LOUD LAUGHTERS, sound energy produced that can lit probably a hundred (or more) light bulbs.

This is not only a surprise for my brother... i was surprised too! At how noisy boys can be...

But i was glad my brother's happy:D He even thanked me after the party:) Happy birthday Edward!!!!

Boys gone wild~

Friday, October 19, 2007

Linda the hopeless romamtic

~~** You changed my world with a blink of an eye**~~
~~**That is something that I can not deny **~~
~~**You put my soul from worst to best **~~
~~**That is why I treasure you my dearest ???**~~

~++It takes a life time to find someone, but only a moment to fall in love.++~

^^You can fall in love in an instant. It's letting go that takes time.^^

``Love wasn't put in your heart to stay, because Love isn't Love until you give it away.``

**Remember not to ever expect love,
but do not forget about it either.**

//Every Love gone wrong is one step closer to your one true love//

?????What happens when he's your prince charming, but you're not his cinderella??????

^^***so from now on...
when you think of me...
just remember that i could have been...
the best thing you ever had.***^^

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Sometimes you just have to do it because it's your job...

School started yesterday.

Didn't sleep well the night before so during lecture my mind was wandering as my brain was switched to 'dream mode'.

I had no idea what the later lectures was about after the first one. Until the IEP PROJECT.... (Final year project)...

As much as I hate to do it... i still have to.. in order to graduate.

Was sooooo tired after school yesterday that i went to bed at 7.30pm last night. And woke up at 6 the next morning. yes yes 10.5 hours of sleep.

But i was still tired this morning... hai... afternoon class better:)

Thanks Qiyu for always reminding me to copy notes during lectures! Cos my mind wanders a lot...

Really happy and relieved today cos all members of the Wu Gong Zhu Bang were present for the group outing today! :) Even if it's just a simple dinner and chit-chatting i felt a lot better and free from the stress accumulated from school.

Bang Zhu (none other than our Charis da jie)arrived first, followed by 4 gong zhu(Linda) and xiao gong zhu(Jia min)... 3 gong zhu(Joanne) and finally 2 gong zhu(mingmay) who arrived much much later... in the end 4 gong zhu have to leave early so can't spend much time with 2 gong zhu. The gong zhus wanted to watch Resident Evil but 4 gong zhu chickened out... haha because she have lots of projects waiting for her to lay her hands on. (and also becos she's scared of vampires)

We headed to Long John Silver for our dinner and i thought it was rather relaxing even if it's a simple one. We talked a lot and even shared many jokes but i believed the best one came from Jiamin... cannot say it out here cos it's copyrighted by jiamin... you go ask her ba lol

We took a pledge as the Wu Gong Zhu Bang...

Can you guess which hands belong to the wu gong zhus respectively??? =D

Xiao gong zhu came up with another idea...

Wow our little fingers look pretty similar... haha

Hope to get back on track soon! Try not to think too much and learn to listen more to the head rather than the heart! Jia you!

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Just my thoughts...

I've come to realise... that most things ain't the way they appear to be. Especially people. Even the ones you thought you trusted the most.

Was it a mere coincidence when you happened to realise the person you trusted the most has lied to you? Or was it a sign that means something? Or simply becos heaven is out to get you?

Was all upset about it last night and couldn't sleep well but now... i don't really mind. Anyway I'm nothing to the person, what gives me the right to be angry or upset? He has his freedom and he's on his own and no one can tell him what to do.

And by the way who doesn't lie? It's just a sad event that i happened to find out by accident.

Becos i would rather not find out...

Went out with 3 of the 5 gong zhu bang last Saturday:) Jiamin and Charis (bang zhu)

We took neoprints and after which Jiamin had to leave early to visit her granny. We shared a lot on the journey to Orchard and we took our pictures at Heeren. After Jiamin left, Charis and I had our lunch at Yoshinoya where she ordered for us a beef bowl (me) and Teriyaki chicken bowl(her). After that we chanced upon a fashion show in the middle of the Taka building where the models looked really sophisticated and gorgeous.
When the show ended we got to see a closer view of the models as they were all leaving the stage for their breaks and we chanced upon a really good looking 6 ft 5 tall model with black, near shoulder-length hair... but he's a guy. He had to bend really low to talk to his friend next to him and his smile is perhaps one of his best asset... :) Charis agreed to0.

We proceeded to Cineleisure to take more neoprints and choose the most expensive machines priced at 800 yens (S$11) which claimed to be able to send the pictures to our phone via infrared for free. It was only when i got home that i realised my phone actually had infrared-.-" haha so sadly... i couldn't upload the pictures into my phone.

On our way home taking the MRT, there was a mini incident which made me really unhappy and so do Charis ba.

A group of man in their 20s were standing with us in the crowded train and one of them was holding on to the pole grip which Charis and me was holding on to.
After a few minutes i began to feel that his hand was sliding down and touching mine so out of pure politeness i slided my hand lower. But he reacted quicker than i thought and began to slide his hand further down.
I again gave way and left only 3 fingers onto the grip but the man never seemed to want to stop it. He again slided his hand down till it touched mine again. Charis saw it and asked me to move my hand above hers and his.

That man shifted his hand to above mine!!! *angry and humiliated!!*

Charis couldn't stand it and pulled me over to another corner when the train became less crowded. Thanks Charis!... i was sort of mortified in that moment.

I couldn't do much actually so i was feeling rather humiliated... sigh

but if he tried to go too far i would most probably screamed my lungs out and stepped on his foot.

Got back home to my msn (my escapism) but it was a mistake i've made that day... by logging on to msn and chanced upon a discovery i hope i never made.

But i'm feeling better now:) Got to talk to a senior friend of mine on msn today and Valentin my new friend and realised we had a lot to talk about.

Pictures to share:)

^^^^^^^^^^^^^:D

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Goodbye sweet memories

Tomorrow is the last day of my work at the childcare...

I can't believe how fast my holidays went by... I'm definitely not ready for school yet. The thought of waking up very early next Monday and the journey to school is tiring enough.

Down with a cold since yesterday... got the virus from "hui ge", our super active baby in toddler class as i was taking care of him the whole time yesterday when he got a fever. But he was still VERY active... Rimus seems to dislike him a lot... always shouting "BABY!" whenever "hui ge" was near him and naughty Rimus even hit him on the head with a surprisingly serious look on his face.

Rimus can be very fierce... he resembles a mum reprimanding her child. I was taken aback and called out gently to Rimus to check if he's alright. He turned to face me with his signature charming smile.

Rimus is definitely not a simple person...

haha

Today my patience was tested to the limit.... Dayna was driving me to the wall with her loud whining and moments of "drama mama". She is our officially "touch-me-not" and "touch-my-things-not" but she can go around snatching people's belongings and when you tried to get it back she'll give a scream that will pierced your eardrums.

Ha ha but again, she's still a small kid.

Back to my baobei Rimus:D He is very naughty today and the teacher told me to punish him.
And so I sat Rimus down and folded his arms and legs (a practice to show the child is being punished) and said in a non-serious and pretended angry tone: "teacher angry! Rimus naughty!"

Rimus didn't even look at me and turned his face sideway with a pout. When the teacher is gone he looked at me and i smiled at him, caressing his cheeks:) He responded to my affection with his sweet smile and gently saying the words "jie jie":D

Uh oh... i'm spoiling the child le... but Rimus is not very naughty so i think it's ok hee hee:D

I realised that since my arrival at the childcare centre... especially with the toddler class, i have only taught them 2 chinese words out of fun... and the children were so familiar with the words that these words will come out of their mouths whenever i'm around. haha

The 2 chinese words are "KE AI" & "AI NI".

Haha very meaningless right? But hearing these 2 words from the children has a heartwarming effect:) They were so cute when they said them. Especially (actually only) Darian, Ryka & Rimus:D

Ke ai, Ai ni, Ke ai, Ai ni... ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha :D

I will miss the children terribly and might not even sleep well tonight thinking of them :(

I've learnt so much during my days of working at the childcare and I've also been forced to do things i don't wish to but now i think nothing of it. ( ha ha I've to wash the children's when they shitted)

Warning Alert: Do not read this part if you haven't had your meal

And today i did it too... Le Le was so cute in the toilet today when he told me he wanted to "uh uh". (pass motion lah:D) I carried him onto the toilet bowl and stand a few feet away to "observe". He kept looking behind him (he sat facing the flush handle) to see if i'm still there. After he was done i looked down inside the toilet and saw that his poops resembled 5 small chocolates balls. ha ha even his poops were so cute!

After which i washed him and he was fidgeting and laughing cos the water spray felt ticklish to him. Hee hee and he thought i was playing a game with him! That kid...

When we were back into the toddler's room 5 children were left in my care. Toddlers are cute but they are very difficult to handle. The 5 children were ~*Rimus*~ (biased teacher), Jesyln (taiwan radio), Dayna(Drama mama), Chiang Liang (high pitch soprano), Jian hui (hui ge aka baby).

I realised that whenever i play with the children and caresses their cheeks (my unstoppable and bad habit) they would try to squeeze my cheeks too! ha ha but i wouldn't let them do it cos their hands are never clean... (children use their hands to explore many things... including TOILET BOWL) but once Rimus succeeded:) He smiled so charmingly and i was so mesmerized and reacted much slower than normal. But i was glad that he did it... i don't mind at all XD:D

I wish i could show you pictures of them but i can't post it here cos i've to respect the privacy of these children:)

At about 5.30pm I have to help out the playgroup (3 years old). They were a feisty bunch but nonetheless some of them are still very cute:)

Hee hee especially Putri.:)

When i sat down on a chair to watch the naughtier bunch play on the table Putri took a chair and sat next to me!! :) When i turned to see her i was surprised and she was smiling shyly at me:D

I will definitely miss her... not so much of her brother though... who always bullied me..like stabbing his fingers in an attempt to tickle my back but i only felt pain.

During my supposedly long holidays, i even dreaded working sometimes cos the 3 hours there can be very exhausting both physically and mentally.

But now that i realised i only have a day left with them.. it made me cherished them so much... I'm beginning to miss them already... what saddened me the most is the children below the age of 4 have poor memories of the past... so but the time i came back to work again in December (hopefully) they would have forgotten cleanly about me....

Don't you dare forget me Rimus!!!! Like your brother Ryan:'( At least i got to relived the happier moments with him again but to do it again with you is very difficult... cos you're so cute you're bound to attract the attention of the other teachers and soon i'll be replaced by another teacher :'(.

Sigh......................

Brother Oliver woke me up yesterday (mentally) and I'm glad he did. My sweet brother forever and ever.

Now with the sweet memories behind me... it's time to look for other things to occupy my wandering mind.

Let's start with shopping ba hee hee:) more neoprints please! I miss the wu gong zhu bang:D

Take care everyone

Closing the door of my Neverland... ..

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

Linda

Facts about Linda

Fact 1: Linda is unrealistic... so obvious I know... But Linda don't think so

Fact 2: Linda loves children... envious of them... and secretly imagining what her child will look like

Fact 3: Linda is emotional... Whenever she got into a unhappy situation she'll look for 3 sources to lean on.. source 1:Charis source 2: Secret source 3:close friend online and who's status is not busy or away Usually she wants to talk to source 2 first and seeing that source 2 isn't online makes her even depressed than before.

Fact 4: Linda is weak... These days she gets sick every 2 weeks and is tired easily... usually she can stay up till 4 am but nowadays she looks like she's dying at 12am. Her mother thought her health's deteriorating too.

Fact 5: Linda is a loser who give up easily and avoid the source that inspired her to follow her dreams in the past. She can't help it.

Fact 6:Linda is very soft-hearted so as to say she might be cheated easily. If a poor looking guy comes up to her for money he/she gets it and she pitied the old people sitting alone in the public and this scene will affect her mood for the rest of the day.

Fact 7: Linda is very stubborn... but not unreasonable.. if a person is bad she'll do her very best to act insolent to make the person even angrier. haha so far not yet but she hopes to try

Fact 8: If Linda wants something very much and can't get it she'll think about it all the time until she finally gets it or have forgotten about it. If she knew it would never be hers she'll bring this matter in whenever she feels upset.

Fact 9: Linda appreciates her friends and hope she can be in the same class as her good friends from 4B (WU GONG ZHU BANG, weiquin's gang, koh wenyi's gang, choumeng's gang)

Fact 10: Linda isn't appreciative of what she have... always hoping to escape to a better place when Singapore is one of the safest places in the world.

Fact 11: Linda hopes she can make some things disappear forever...

Monday, October 8, 2007

My song

Just wanna share some part of a lyrics which kinda surprised me in some way when i heard it. Looks like falling out of love scenarios are all pretty similar... in fact very.

你看着我说千万不要爱上你因为你只会让我伤心别傻了快点喊停
你那么冷静忽远又忽近

我知道我对你来说也许太年轻我想我猜我问我终于了解
原来为爱流的眼泪也是种甜蜜滋味

只想爱你好想每天睁开眼睛就能看到你我知道我偶尔有一点任性

It's from a song named: "只想爱你" by Rainie Yang Cheng Ling

Let me come up with a simple scenario to go with this song ba..

A teenage girl fell for a man about twice her age in which the latter point it out and prevent the relationship from going further by being the girl's god brother instead.

After some time the man has found a new woman in his life who's in her late 20s' and they seemed to be happy together and the man hope to settle down soon.

The teenage girl felt sad of cos but could do nothing about it cos she's too far away. She didn't even shed a tear. Maybe it isn't that depressing for her?

Who knows best but her..

She tried to confide in her friends, spend more time doing other stuffs, go on retail therapy but at the end of the day the thought of the man with the other woman always crossed her mind.

She can't help it but check into msn every day in the hope to see him even though her head told her not.

But slowly she is coming to term with it, what is yours is meant to be and what isn't yours can never be...

She believes this is a good experience for her... that she has tasted true love at least once in her lifetime...

She thinks she can never stop loving the man... but only time can tell

She believes her prince is somewhere out there and she should learn to let go this one...

Because that is the only way... she'll be able to move on... cos being persistent isn't always right thing to do..

She must learn to let go... even if it's hard...

And she's still trying

Can i be a scriptwriter?? hee hee
Hope i don't bore you with this... i bet you're sleeping now.:/

Some neoprints i took with Charis... to cheer up!

Sunday, October 7, 2007

Walking out of neverland

School is starting soon... in a week's time.

Which means i would have to leave my neverland again... a place i've overstayed in the past 2 months.

No more late nights and waking up in the early afternoon during weekdays.

No more msn marathons.

No more afternoon movies with my mum.

No more work at the childcare!! :'( bye bye ryan, rimus, darian, ryka, putri.....)

No more brother oliver

At least i was happy once in my neverland ya HA HA

Wanna meet up with my WU GONG ZHU bang before school reopens... miss them a lot and missing terribly the time we last hung out together.

At least when school reopens i get to go to school with CHARIS!!!! And hanging out with may on friday during our horribly long break. (She's got 4 hours I've got 3)

It seems that Brother Oliver has a new love in his life, which he is unsure himself but i think this is it.

I hope i can be happy for him but ha ha i felt nothing. He's quite matured le maybe he wants to settle down soon.

I just hope he's happy.

The weather is getting cooler le... hope it continues.. somehow my mood is in relation to the weather... lol

Seems like i've mature a lot in the long long holidays... especially in dealing with the grown up stuffs.. matter of the heart... stress... i'm sort of immune to setbacks le..

Come to realise that friends are the ones that's really important really... cos sometimes there are just things you won't tell your family about.

I'm feeling a little upset while writing this... can you feel it? :)

Blogging is really a form of therapy for me now... thanks to my friends who encourage me to:)

Now i'm more into music and drawing... these are great therapies too:)

Nothing to blog about today... sorry another boring post! hee hee

The "forget-me-not".

Some meaningful quotes to share:
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If I never met you, I wouldn't like you. If I didn't like you I wouldn't love you. If I didn't love you I wouldn't miss you, but I did, I do and I will.

The hardest part of loving someone is knowing when to let go, and knowing when to say goodbye.

I hate you for not letting me have you.

If You Really Love Something Set It Free. If It Comes Back It's Yours, If Not It Wasn't Meant To Be

Moving on is simple, it's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult

It's like my mind knows what's right but my heart is being retarded and still cares

I miss you a little, I guess you could say, a little too much, a little too often, and a little more each day.

Days continue to pass, stars continue to shine. Why do I have tears in my eyes today when he was NEVER mine?

Love that we can not have is the one that last the longest, hurts the deepest and feels the strongest. *************************************************

After reading all this quotes... do you still wanna fall in love?? For me i only see the word "hurt"..

Random thought

Friday, October 5, 2007

The rainbow after the rain

Just realised i haven't posted about this. On the night of the mid-autumn festival we gave jiamin a birthday surprise at the bus stop (near jiamin and chou meng's house). Chou meng is a really reliable friend! After i called him he flew down to meet me! CM bought the chocolate too and it tasted especially nice=D

I really love this photo!! So happy to see Jiamin's happy expression and that our plan succeeded!

CM also did a great job in creating the atmosphere and made Jiamin feel a lot better that day (she appeared to be stressed out) with his witty quick mind and sense of humour.

Kan bei to our friendship =D

My gum infection reaches it's peak today and I had a fever in the late evening while working.
So the children were pretty much left to be wilder than before cos i couldn't talk above a whisper.

And the other sad thing about today was: I actually made Rimus cry.. for the first time.

When i came into the centre the teacher was complaining about Rimus being naughty the whole morning.

And my gum infection was obviously still bugging me and a totally perfect timing for a headache to come in too :/

Oh ya... how did i make Rimus cry today??

When he refused to share and keep his claws firmly etched to the side of the toy basket even though i have repeatedly warned him nicely against it.

I only said: "I don't like Rimus le" in a normal tone with a pretended angry face.

And then the poor kid burst into tears within 2 seconds.

I didn't even scold him :(

But after i hugged him and kissed him on the cheeks he smiled!

Yes all within half a minute.... from a crying flushed face to smiling cheekily.

Naughty Rimus!

I'm officially his "KAO SHAN" le.

HAHA let me talk about a different kid today ok?? Or else you'll think my childcare only have one cute kid. hee hee

Hee hee this little kid is a boy too... toddler class de.. named LE LE. Very cute... small eyes will inner double eyelids, cherry mouth and fair skin..

but he's also HYPERACTIVE.

Today i'm so touched... when they were having tea break he moved his chair next to where i'm sitting and said "gen jie jie zhuo" ><

He's too cute! Reminded me of the incident where he tore the curtains down yesterday and he was in fright.. I carried him in my arms and consoled him... in that moment he was very cute.. but i was veyr worried when he became quiet and still for so long.

In the end he's still back to his old self...but i'm glad he is:)

I love LE LE, DARIAN, RYAN, RIMUS, RYKA, +++++

I just love children too much cos i realised i've been very patient with them and i can never seems to be angry even thought they can be very very naughty.

Brother Oliver called today! He actually gave me his number but i can't call.... if my parents find out i've been making overseas call i'm DEAD.

He called to ask if i'm feeling better! I'm happy to hear his voice:) I hope he'll get his dream job soon.. sigh... even though deep inside i don't wish for him to work somehow.. stupid me... want him to starve to death Just happy today's friday!!!!!

I can watch Arsenal play tomorrow!!! F1 china grand prix on Sunday!!!!

I'm staying home this weekends.. sorry my friends! hee hee

This is the apple i drew when i was suppose to iron the clothes in the end my mum does it cos i'm not feeling well. I keep asking her if it's nice then she said ah na ah na nice la.. then my brother suddenly come out of the room and said that i;m the worse when it comes to whining. and whoever got to marry me in the future is super "lucky". haha can't believe it's my brother who said that... don't support own sister.