Saturday, March 29, 2008

It's all gonna be over soon...

My boss don't let me quit... so I am to stay for another 2 weeks (IF i am still alive)

Went out with Charis yesterday... spent the whole day at Orchard shopping... when I got home my energy has been totally drained out of my body... I was sooo tired but happy as I could totally use the retail therapy...

Bought a puffy blue stripped dress and a babytop shirt at Far east which cost about $100 in all... I know I am crazy but I really like them and dunno why yesterday I was in a splurging mood...

In fact I think I will regret it if I don't buy=D So I psycho myself to buy it=D haha

Please give me the energy to go through the next 2 weeks!!! Please please I don't want to be a victim of bad luck again!

Friday, March 28, 2008

The cruel world

Have been working at the centre for a month.... all i can say that I am at the peak of my unhappiness.... and it could only get worse if I continue..

I have never been more stressed and unhappy in my life.... and I want to end this unecessary experience which many said was a 'learning experience'.

Yes, I did learn a lot of things about myself, that I could be so unlucky, stupid, careless and useless.

And how much I suffered by working solely for money which was my only motivation... I felt no joy, no appreciation and tired all the time...

All I got were complaints about trivial matters that I never would dream about... demands and demands... workloads that could kill my weekends...

All when I was only a part timer... and I've been in the centre for like... less than a month...

Shall not elaborate more about this... though I definitely feel much better talking about it in my blog..

Thanks to all my friends who listened to me these days and checking to see if i'm alright...

I hope I am lucky enough to work at my previous centre, where the pay is lower but I am HAPPIER!

I want to get a lot of things when I received my pay... I want to be happy again!

I received new pictures of my darling baby james!!!!=D I wish I could hug him he looked so much like baby ryan=D

Quote of the day: The bad times will go away.

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Sky of Love

Finally get to go out today=D Though I promised I should see a doctor but I really wanna have fun today so heeee ^^

Watched "Sky of Love" with my poly best friend QiYu!!! too bad my Dear Ashidah couldn't make it.

Cried during most part of the movie even though I tried to hold back my tears but I just couldn't help it. This movie is so touching and it made me realise something so important.

Just when I thought true love no longer exists in this world and that I am the only fool in the world who believed in that a while ago... this movie makes me rethink about many aspects of my life...

Just when I think love shun me and that I could never pick up from where I left off I feel myself wanting to change that.

I will wait for my time=D I want to experience the miracle on earth.. to truly love someone...

But right now... I will love all my children first:D

I want a love story like Mika and Hiro^^

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Dilemma

A few days ago I received a couple of complaints from the kids' parents... shall not elaborate about the petty matters but there is one where I have to call the parent up to apologize. Me not very happy but never mind...

Found that the children are getting attached to me and I love it=D But I know that I can't be with them for long cos I don't have the energy to work there... I always feel like a dead log at the end of the day and hungry constantly while at work

And my boss extended my working hours from 9.30am-7pm to 9.30am-7.30pm... 10 hours of work... working with the ever active and accident prone toddlers... is just killing me..

sure.. they're cute... but my body does not have the energy to deal with them for such long hours... and with the parents' complaints and me as the main teacher now that the previous form teacher has quit... is just killing my social life..

I can't go out for a simple movie or dinner cos by the time I reached home it was about 8.30pm... and no energy to do anything else..

Btw, I received a call from NTUC CC asking me to join them... should I??? Would it be fair to the toddlers if I leave them? Though they drives me mad at times but I remained patient with them as they are still little. But the work is killing me... I want my health back...

What should I do???????????????????

Monday, March 17, 2008

I've bounced back from my terrible mood and in fact I enjoyed myself with the children today!!!!!! =D

There were only 8 of them and they were so lovely with me today=D =D

I guess they are used to me le:D I gave away lots of hugs and kisses today! And played a lot with them too:D

Saw Ryan again today!!! And he gave me the blur look again... I hope I could hug him!!!

Went out with Bao Yi my jap craze tomodachi last Thursday to catch up on what we've been missing out on each other's life.... watched the Spiderwick Chronicles was a little disappointed cos i expected more...

I believe the kids would love it though

Before the movie We had our lunch at Kobayashi Cineleisure and then proceeded immediately to Burger King (how i miss working there) for our snacks... large onion rings and taro pies!!!!!

I saw my ex colleague Auntie Annie!!!! She even gave me a free drink... haha

My dad picked me up at the lakeside mrt station for his birthday celebration... that night he was super happy and kept ordering food as though they were free...

then the whole family went to Boon Lay Shopping centre to shop and then went home to my mum's sharkfin soup =D =D =D

I bought for my a dad a bottle of moisturizer cos he has been complaining of the air con drying his skin out hahahahahaha

OH MY I've been coughing non-stop till today that I have no mood to go out and have been experiencing extreme tiredness...

I want my health back!!!!!!!!

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Linda is so sad

I know I shouldn't be feeling sad about it but I just can't help it.

I don't want to work there anymore.... and if there's anything that is more heartbreaking it is to deal with rich people's kids.

I know they're just children and I've been trying to make myself forget about it.. but it is wiping off the smiles on my face these days... I just don't have the mood and energy to smile after work.

And my schedule was changed from 9am-6pm to 9.30-7pm -.-"

I remembered the days where I was working at the NTUC childcare centre and I was smiling all the time and what I felt was genuine love for the children and vice versa.

Here I could feel nothing... i felt disrespected and bullied in some ways... I mean I know they are still toddlers but they sure know how to break hearts.

i will keep telling myself to be PATIENT and PATIENT.

And oh ya I was told off by my superior because of a couple of mistakes and one involving a parent telling lies. Shall not elaborate further.

Spent the whole saturday in bed most of the time cos YES I am still sick from the flu with an additional infected eye.

so i was in hell working on friday... I want to go out in the weekends and it flopped.

Was so glad to talk to Mr O my best friend a few days ago hope you are doing well :)

Oh ya I saw Ryan's dad picking Ryan up in the noon when I was going out for lunch... he's soooo cute when I see him closeup... a bit of rashes around his face though...

Ryan is going to have a new sibling( i'm not sure if it's a boy or a girl) but i heard the baby weighs 5.6 KG!!!!!!!!!! OMG

I want to go back to my previous children where I feel APPRECIATED.

Don't worry I'll bounced back:) Thank you dear friends for all your concerns:)

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

working ordeals

I am sick to the core and can't work today... which means i gave up the chance to earn $59.50 today...

My working schedule was changed to 9.30am to 7pm this week... so by the time i reached home it will be about 8pm...

sigh i am soooooooo tired...

that i lost a kg during my 2 weeks there... sounds exaggerating but it is true...

ok it's not forever so i don't want to nag about it...

besides i love the children and i have to tell myself all the time that they are children... i must be gentle and patient to them..

and now to work on my energy level and immunity system.

oh ya i found out a lot of things from working...

that aunties at the centre don't treat the temporary teachers equally... (ok at least i am not alone)

that kids by the name of "Ryan" are soooooooooo adorable...

but i still love my old Ryan:)

there is this little Ryan in the infant room class and he will be promoted to my class in 2 months time (well if i am still teaching)

He is so cute... with blond hair and blue eyes and quite plump too.. i thought he had an adult face at times....

haha but i can only see him cos i am not allowed in the infant room >.<

been thinking a lot about my future these days... but i don't have a clue! perhaps i should just enjoy my youth years now....

mmmm.... i don't want to lead a dull life. but in the mean time i still have to work!

and yes i want to go to Japan!!!!!!!

Can't wait for the weekends to come again...:D

Saturday, March 8, 2008

Linda is so tired...

Linda is so tired that she don't even have the energy to smile....

Been working for 1 week at the little skool house... I work with the toddlers... who are a bunch of fiesty kids and most definitely challenging.

My work schedule:

9am to 9.30am- Watch the children eat their breakfast properly, send them to the music room to assemble. Deal with separation anxiety. Coaxing crying kids.

9.30am to 10am- Change diapers... deal with baby X who cried non-stop and demanding me to carry him. all 18 kg of him.

10am to 10.30am- Try my very best to force them to drink water... wipe off the water the children have purposely spilled on the floor... activity time... calling out to the children every min not to throw toys

10.30 to 11am- Shower time + change diaper.... I always get wet... but it's fun bathing them.:)

11am to 11.30am- Lunch time... have the watch the kids very carefully... some were playing with their food, one of them grabbing other's food, one refused to be fed, one is throwing a tantrum, another refused to use a spoon

As usual.... a battlefield in the diner area...

11.30 to 12.00- Put bed sheets on each child's mattresses (12 of them) and line down their pillow, bolster and huggies. Make milk.

12 to 12.30- Make sure the childrne finished all their milk.... on the naptime music.... collect their bottles. Pat the children to sleep. One of them took me at least 20 minutes of coaxing.

12.30 to 1pm- Still coaxing some of them to sleep.

1pm to 2pm- Lunch time. But a few kids woke up... so they watched me eat.

2 pm to 3pm- Work on the computer for lesson plans for the children. Interrupted every 10 min cos the children kept crying and wants me to carry them.

3pm to 3.30pm- wake the children up. Keep all their bedsheets and and pillows. Make milk for some of them. Still trying to wake up a few of them who cried non-stop when I tried to.

3.30 to 4.15pm- Change of diaper. Tea-time.

4.15 to 5.25- Activity time. Chasing the children everywhere. Stopping their from biting one another and throwing toys.

5.25 to 6pm- Dinner time. Again the battle begins.

6pm to 6.10(OT but no pay)- Change of diaper. I switched to super fast mode.

6.10am to 7pm- Drag my weary feet home....

Money earned for the day: happy happy=D so tired that i shower, ate and go straight to bed>.<

Went out with jiamin and charis today to suntec and bugis to get our dear JOJO's present Suntec and bugis was soooooooooooo crowded but I like it=D

I like places with liveliness:D

Bought my 2 L posters=D =D I already put them up on my bedroom's walls=D

As for what I really want this holiday... is to be happy... I want to be happy~

I miss the outings..

I will try my best to be a good caregivers to the children... and not be angry with them.:)

I want so much to work with the infants!!! they are so cute!!

i think i will get a cert in infant care... then i can be a mother le hahahahahahahahahaha

Working makes me nuts... >.<

Oh ya... i cut my hair again... today haha my head feel so light now...

Been down with a cold cos baby X sneezed on me TWICE in the childcare a few days ago while I was carrying him >.<

So glad to have the time to write this blog... back to planning lessons again and attend to other matters... Take care everyone! =D

Sunday, March 2, 2008

It's all about $$$$$

Tomorrow I will start work at The Little Skool house for a week from 9am to 6pm.

I have to wake up at 6am again><

sigh... but kinda relieved that I've got a job cos I need money to buy lots and lots of things....

I want to buy more clothes for myself,
I want to get more Avene sprays for my sensitive skin,
I want to get the whole set of the mineral makeup,
I want to buy more supplements,
I want to get a new pair of spectacle,
I want to the extra money to do lots and lots of things
I want to send my mum to a specialist
I want to watch a lot of movies with my friends
I want to eat lots of good food with my friends

I want to go JAPAN!!!!!!!!!!!! I've been wanting to since I was 12 how long more do I have to wait!!!!

And I want lots of L posters to decorate my room ^^

And I hope in this holiday I can have a ?????? (hahahaha don't tell you)

So i will work very hard this holiday to earn lots and lots of $$$$$$$$$$

Went to my old school homecoming on the 1st of March with my dear friends
:Charis, Huimin, Jiamin, JoJo and Wingyi

My dearest NeGong aka mingmay didn't turn up:'(

After which Fongmun joined us for dinner at pizza hut where we ordered 2 large pizza:
Super supreme and Hawaiian Supreme... super nice cos we were starving

The person who took our order is a Japanese I think..

took our neoprints together!!!!

Really like the korean drama "My Girl"... I guess this show is made for people like me... haha

Going to watch the movie "L" again hahahahahah

L my hero!!!

I am going to cut my hair again next week... now i am more into short hair ^^

Can you spot me??? The 7 flowers~~~~~