Tuesday, October 30, 2007

I've learn to deal with unhappy incidents and my monotonous school life by preoccupying myself with the things i like to do..

Sounds easy and satisfying at first, but it also leads to greater and unreasonable demands and lack of motivation to work hard for what i was suppose to be doing as i was drawing myself further and further from my supposedly ultimate goal which was to survive the trying months before graduation which seems like a good 3 years away. (3 months actually)

I'm really happy to know O and I love what I am when I'm with him. He's my source of happiness and equal sadness at times besides my closest friends and family. Someone who made me feel God indeed did send each of us an angel to take care of us in times of needs.

Perhaps it's hard for others to understand, when we're 2 totally different people with different principles in life, a rather big gap in age, different nationalities, religions and so on... but we're human beings after all... I believe if we can all see that the possibility of world peace wouldn't seem so far-fetched after all.

I don't deny the fact that I'm putting myself at a risk by choosing to go with my heart most of the time. At least i feel immediate gratification whenever I needed it. Even if it hurts at times as I know very well that it can never go beyond what I wanted it to be, I'm pretty satisfied already. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger... and I'm willing to put that to a test.

Because before I met him I never knew what it was like to look at someone and smile for no reason. And his smile in return makes it all worthwhile... I'll remember my first TL at 19, my best birthday present ever...

I would have to keep reminding myself that I don't own my angel, he was sent to me to make me realise that all is not lost, there's someone out there who you can trust and who deserved equal chance to find his own happiness.

But for now I can't... so i'll keep trying and trying... until life surprises me with other greater things..

**++In youth, it was a way I had,
To do my best to please.
And change, with every passing lad
To suit his theories.

But now I know the things I know
And do the things I do,
And if you do not like me so,
To hell, my love, with you.++**

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//Lover

Typical girl on the outside, never know what she's thinking on the inside. I just wanna lead a carefree life by the countryside:(in Europe)

//Loves

Loves: Robin van persie, my family, friends, chocolates, the internet, brother oliver, children (esp. ryan and rimus), dreaming, teenage flicks, fairy tales,F1, MotoGP, EPL(only when arsenal is winning), my room.

//Hates

Hates: Boredom, the reality, pollution, work, study, warm weather, arsenal losing, robin van persie injured, being forced to do things

//Lies

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Hui yee . Charis . Chou Meng
Jia min . Mei Mei. Jia Fong.

//Special thanks